To be honest I feel really sad today. I feel bad about my fight with my mom last night. I think she feels really sad. We talked about it this morning and I apologized but I still feel guilty. We really started packing up the house today. More then half of the house is packed in boxes and in the garage. If all is ok tomorrow next week we will look at houses. With the market being so weird we have to act fast. My old therapist is still getting to me and I’m nervous about the new one. My PMDD is rough and I wish there was a way to get rid of it.

But today I feel sad about a few things and my nausea and stomach are still weird. I didn’t make any of my usual jokes and my tone was montone all day instead of quoting TV characters in their voices like I usually do. I didn’t send my mom any funny memes either.

I cancelled my Amazon music subscription. I’ll renew it when I’m more stable but a lot of those songs trigger strong emotions that make it tough to handle things.