Not strong enough... I'm so stupid... I drank, holding the bottle as I type. &^%$ing stupid... 136 days down the drain with no alcohol... probably didn't do my math right because I'm drinking.

Not even satisfied, I want all of it, this is just alcohol, I can't resist it. What does it matter, who was I kidding, no one cares, I could never stay sober. I'm not strong, I'm not worth it.