On Friday I found out my nieghbour passed away. We did talk allot when I walked by her house or saw her shopping. I knew she was not well and waiting for a kidney transplant. Also she was suffering with depression, marital issues. She trusted me enough to share. It's been a rough weekend for me so far.


I feel like im lost in my past all over again. I had a awesome session last Thursday and now I feel like my world is crumbiling again. All I can think about is my losses in my life, feel scared about my future here.

Do I reach out to my therapist ask for extra support or should I wait til when I see her on March 12th? I feel this has really taken me back a few steps in my recovery and feel defeated. I am also dissociating allot not really present or grounded.