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Oh ye of little faith, honey WE ARE NOT going to reject you like others have. You will find the trust I promise
Angie

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Trust is a major issue for me, like someone already said, others will always let you down, or something to that effect. My past experience is that everybody does always reject me, even though they,ve all said they wouldn't. I want to trust people, I really do, but at this point in my recovery, I'm afraid that if I let anybody into my little world behind my fortress walls, then the past will repeat itself. I know it is not fair to assume that those that are in my life currently will treat me the same as those in my past but until I at least get one person who actually stands behind their word of not rejecting me, then it's hard for me to remove any bricks from my walls. However, it's not totally impossible because somehow, CheshireCat just bombarded through my fortress walls before I knew what was happening. I need constant reassurance at this point, I'm very fragile, at least that's how I feel, although I've often been told that I'm strong. I don't understand why they say it but they must see it somehow whereas I don't at this point. So, please keep trying with me, I may have a thick skull and a fortress wall of protection around me but it's obviously not as strong as I thought since cat found his way through. If he managed it, then others can to.