It was a beautiful sunny Winter day today and my dog and i had a lovely time sitting out in the sun surrounded by the sparkling snow.

I watched several episodes of "The Young and the Restless" today with pleasure. Sometimes it just irritates me but today i felt compassion and affection for the characters. They care so passionately about each other and want to work out problems with such urgency. They're so honest and direct with each other about their feelings. It's so different from how i was raised, it's really good for me to see a better way of life.

I realized i mistook concern for accusation in my earlier post today because of several bad experiences in my past and while that situation does happen sometimes, that's not what was going on in this instance. I realized that i feel very mixed-up about that part of my life and it's just best to accept that i feel sensitive and conflicted about it and not strive too hard to come to any conclusions.

It's Sunday, so that means it's Cut Day in my benzo taper so i'll be down to 17mg Valium tonight. Progress!