i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. So Sorry that you're feeling like this! This pandemic is likely making things hard. Not sure how much it helps to know this but know that i am available if you need to talk and Hopefully others as well if you just ask. Please do not give up. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @WovenGalaxy, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!