I take Wellbutrin in the morning and again at 4 p.m. I also take Seroquel for sleep - no seizures yet.
I have to say, FluffyD, that I find it interesting that you fear medication, but not ECT. I think that most people are opposite (I'm not saying that "most people" are correct - just that it's interesting to note).
I'm not sure what my pdoc meant by ECT "changing personality", etc. She said it so firmly...spooked me a bit, since she's in her 60's and works p/t with IP, p/t outpatient. So plenty of experience.
It sounds to me like you are in a loop of depression, but that's just a guess based upon the thoughts you share. Hopefully, the hospital you're currently involved with will be much more responsive to your needs.