I’m really embarrassed. I had an amazing several weeks. I completely cleaned my very messy house, decorated, organized, got an entire bedroom full of laundry baskets hung and put away, started a diet, started an exercise program, and got a non-clinical job. I was happy, motivated, and ambitious. It felt good. During that time, I sent a message to my pdoc about how great I was doing including showering, wearing clean clothes every day, fixing my hair every day, etc. I even sent her a meme about overcoming adversity. Sigh. Yesterday, I just woke up feeling sad. I’m not depressed. I have no motivation, feel tired, and regret taking the job. What the heck happened? I can’t go back and see my pdoc after that embarrassing display of happiness if I can’t hang onto the progress. I’ve had 3 energy drinks today just trying to stir up some of that energy but it’s not there.