I am only 13. But I somehow was suicidal before I was 12. My parents divorce is the reason for that one. Its so painful to go thru this. I just don't understand why nothing works. I honestly feel like I would be better off dead. The only reason I haven't acted on it yet is because of my 3 week old sister. I just feel like my life no longer matters. It doesn't make sense. No treatment works. I've been on countless medications and with countless psychotherapists. But nothing ever works. I just feel so stuck because nothing ever works. I honestly just want my life to be done.