I went through two months of stability and feeling good but I was unable still to take care of my home or my basic hygiene. Then I just experienced this burst of energy, more happiness, and motivation. I started really taking care of things and networked to get this job. I have just felt like this must be how normal people feel. This is how normal people get things done. I really can’t afford to go backwards. Maybe the last two days are just bad days and I’ll be back on top tomorrow.