So Sorry you're feeling bad! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. No need to be embarassed as your Pdoc may have seen similar situations to yours. If you're feeling particularly bad Please do not Hesitate in contacting her and asking for Help. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @busymomof5, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!