hello bizi and suzy:

we do know how bad for us our lack of sleep is. but i/ve been pumped full of seroquel, geodon, klonopin, ambien, lunesta, risperdal, etc.........these medicines sedate us and we do sleep at night..about 4-5 hours a night on a good night........but for some reasone, they seem to lose their effectiveness on me after a couple of months and then we're right bqck where started from., the diff. being that then we're also very spaced out during the day. SSSSSOOOOOOOOOO...i feel like what's the point in taking the stuff.....like is one hour extra of sleep 3 or 4 nights a week worth taking these meds. and dealing w/ the side effects? for us it ain't.
we don't take a whole lot of meds right now....we're on trileptal 300m.g. in a.m. and 600m.g. at bedtime, abilify 30 mg. at bedtime, xanax 1 mg. 4x per day, and requip 1mg. 2x perday. then we also take meds for allergy, high blood pressure, fibromyalgia and another related chronically painful disease, and stuff for our belly cause we gots colitis and barett's. i often wonder how many of these physical problems is caused form the anxiety/fear that just never seems to go away.
for me, i have decided that quality of life vs. quantity is more important. Like i would rather spend 55 years on this planet and have good quality of life, over living to a ripe old age w/ poor quality of life. i call being spaced out of my gourd poor quality of life. We talk to T and pdoc about the sleep/manic issues, but never seem to move forward and improve this consistently. so like why sweat what i can't seem to change?
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