we have an alter, Mary Sue........the rest of us hate her......she hates us...............she is bent on destroying us.......................

have to stay stronger than she is............she is so powerful..............can't let her win because she will destroy us and ruin everything the rest of us have worked for.......................

feeling so weak and tired...
tired of fighting
tired of struggling
tired of hurting

have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and breathe..........

does it ever get better where we can all learn to get along?

breathe in, breathe out, feet on the floor, count colors....................

will any of us stop hurting so bad, ever?

will any of us EVER feel safe

breathe in, breathe out, feet on the floor, count colors.....................

searching for hope in this deep black hole surrounded by nasty funk, we're floating in the funk, don't want to drown in it.............getting harder to "hang on"

is it possible to climb out of this black hole and find light,,,,,its so illusive..................light that don't go away

terrified, shivering........................................................................

suffocating in the nasty stuff the flashbacks won't go away