I’m doing good today. It seems like one day is bad and the next is good and then etc etc. Yesterday I think I had some type of bug because I didn’t eat or drink anything but water after 12PM. But today I was able to go to the bank. Which was a pain because I’m still legally female so all my stuff is in my original name but I look like a man so it just gets confusing for people. The bank had good news though. Then I went to World Market which I was not able to make to yesterday. I got some cool stuff. Then I went to the international market and then got a drink from KFC. My 1mil Xanax came in yesterday. My doctor called it right in with no questions asked. He screws stuff up so much. I haven’t taken it at all today. I think just knowing I have it makes me feel better.

I moved my appointment with my surgeon up to next Wednesday. It had been for April something. I don’t want to to get the revisions done while I’m at my new house because that would mean coming from 3 hours away and I don’t know how easy the drive back would be for me.

I feel more ok about going into surgery now. In January things were tough emotionally for me but I feel better now I think because of the new therapist. The transference thing with her was rough. Also my new one actually smiles and shows emotion and isn’t a blank slate robot. I swear the clinic tells all their employees to be like that.