Thanks everyone. We have been to marriage counseling, although he didn’t like it because she mostly talked to him. I met with a lawyer today... getting to this point was so hard. Thinking about the anger he will have if I actually have him served is terrifying. The attorney said I should file before he leaves so he can’t try to take my daughter with him. He also said I can’t be this much of a pacifist because he’s weaponizing it. His guilt trips are stuck in my head. I just need to work up the courage to do what’s in the best interest of my daughter.