I have found that if I don't have a daily responsibility I switch in what seems like moment to moment. Parts in control who don't usually function in the world. So than we stop going out and talking to anyone. Even now I just want to hide in a corner. sometimes I want to cry but I don't know why. Recently my panic attacks have increased but I think its because we don't have a direction. I recently adopted a small dog. My other dog died over a year ago. I think of him a lot. Having Molly has helped me focus and has helped us to be a little organized about who is in charge. I just now realized how much my jobs and volunteer work kept me focused and functional over the years. Without a responsibility I have nothing to focus on and loose track of who I am. another thing I noticed is many of myselves have gotten quiter. I am not sure why. I know my protector is here and some littleones. They help me. But some of the others are very quite are very far back. I don't know why. I am being told its because I don't need them now. I am still confused about this. Also my memory is shot. I think others are out and forget to pass out on the information I need to function in world. I used to have someone who would keep us all informed but he's taking a break now that I am aware of being parts. Some of us talk with each other but now all of us.