I've decided I'm not mad at T anymore. The anger has passed. She said what she said and there's no taking it back but likely next session we'll just move forward like nothing happened. If I were a more mature person I would tell her I was angry with her and why and then we could discuss it. But I don't think I'm that mature. Not that I think our relationship would break down or something but there's a fear in me about telling people that I am or have been angry with them. It's always been "unsafe" in my experience, especially my experiences as a child. I know this would be the perfect opportunity to correct some of that programming from childhood, but like I said, I don't think I'm that mature. I don't know if I will bring any of it up to T. At least I didn't have a crisis over this. I kept it together. I didn't fall apart. I survived being angry. I didn't implode. Some useful stuff there. Shame we won't be discussing it in therapy.