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Mar 04, 2021, 07:02 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
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Originally Posted by Nammu
While actually in a dissociative state I felt safe but the truth was I was more vulnerable because I wasn’t present. Back when ptsd was still an issue for me I dissociated a lot. In a fugue I would leave my house and go walking in my pjs with nothing. I lived in a major metropolis so that was extremely dangerous. I was picked up by the police several times and because I wasn’t in reality and unable to respond I would be taken to hospitals. Once I came out of my dissociation it was quite scary. Not safe at all. I had to give my daughter and power of attorney to my parents until I got a better handle on it. Ptsd is no longer an issue and I no longer dissociate
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Fugue states are creepy - and potentially dangerous. It's good that you no longer have that happening. The last time I experienced a fugue state was one day about a year ago. Apparently, I had gone to the pharmacy, picked up a bottle of medication, and come home. The next day I panicked, thinking I'd forgotten my medication. I called the pharmacy, told them I'd be in to pick it up, and so on. The tech said, "You picked it up yesterday." I told her that no, I had not. I said I'd check my closet. Well, sure enough...there was the bottle of pills. But the sensation was not like normal forgetting, it was as though I had completely lost an afternoon, a black hole.
Strangely, some hours later I had a dim, far-away image appear in my mind of the tire of my car, apparently a memory as I had approached the car to get in and drive away from the pharmacy. Of all things, the tire. I never did recall the rest of the afternoon.
So yeah, fie to fugue states. But I'm wondering if anyone has the experience of dissociation (while still conscious of the body) feeling safer than so-called "reality."
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