I'm inserting my foot in my mouth right now. I'm such an @ss. I complained of being ignored and I didn't even see the replies to me in the Affirmation section that wre already there for some time. I also see now see you guys here being so thoughtful. I'm so used to not feeling accepted, I just assume it has to happen here. You are right. I can't handle compliments because, just maybe, they may make me think in a more healthy way and that means going into unfamiliar territory. I have to get out of this rut.