She called and apologized. She knows nothing about me just my initial assessment 2 years ago. She's writing in her notes not to let me go early. She'll only hospitalize me if I'm unsafe if I fail the assessments. I told her hospitals aren't safe to me. There was lots of silence. She thinks my paranoia has gone unchecked and I need more meds and to work on that. She wants my husband and son to leave for about 15 min. every day this week after I create affirmations. I think I might do a timeline of my ****ed upped ness.