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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
I'm sorry the T told you that. I don't think everyone goes around with such a heavy load of shame. If you are experiencing despair and emptiness that means the MDD and PTSD isn't better. Are you on any medications? That might help. Some people don't like meds. For me, they are a lifesaver. Literally. What about getting help outside of the VA? I saw former T for 10 years. I have seen current T 2.5 years. I have to pay for their services of course but I don't feel like I am being selfish or greedy. I have a crap ton of stuff to sort out and I need help. I hypothesize that you do too. And you deserve that help. HUGS Kit
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SlumberKitty (I hope I did that right)
Thank you, I am on medication, and it has helped, as I am not as depressed as I was. I was pretty bad before. Like really really bad. lol.
I'm willing to go outside the VA if I need to - I just don't know if I really need to. I mean - I feel like I need help, but I also don't want to be one of those people who wants everyone to do everything for them. I read and try to figure things out on my own, but I get sort of sucked into the whirlwind if I don't have someone outside myself to ask about things.
I also feel like I have a crap ton of stuff, lol. From childhood mess through mess in the military, and then all the mess from trying to stuff all that for my whole life. My coping mechanisms are 'run away' and 'deny everything'
I've spent the last few years forcing myself to face this mess to try and fix it, but bouncing around from T to T isn't helping.
Thank you for your response, I really appreciate it.