I forced myself to take my phone ready to hit emergency dial and look through the basement, pantry and garage. Nobody is here, of course. And I'm soundly locked in. I'm still having a hard time believing I'm safe. I even know what this man "looks like". Which is probably the whole issue...My bio-father died 2 years ago yesterday. Before he died I kept seeing him in town over several months. This "person" was the same one as back then but after seeing my father before he died I know that it was only my imagination of what he looked like; he looked very different at death than when I'd seen him 20some years before.

And to make it even more difficult thanks to COVID and some bad timing on my brother's part my father's ashes are in my garage, right next to the pantry where I thought he was hiding.

None of this is making me much calmer though. I'm glad I didn't find anyone but still don't believe it's totally safe in here. I probably need more PRN; don't know if I can take more yet.