I'm sorry you are going through this. Have you discussed this with your doctor? It does sound like you might be depressed. Really the only thing to do is please keep taking your meds and do other things that will keep you positive - maybe go out for walks or meditate. This too shall pass, and it can be tough to wait it out, I know. I am worried that you mention street drugs. While it may seem a good idea for a quick hit of energy, it will mess with your current meds and put your mood off even more. So let us know how it goes, ok?