i must agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. It does seem like you're simply in your "down" phase of bipolar although the only way to know for sure is to ask a professional. Please do NOT take street drugs or anything dangerous like that. Contact a professional or anyone whom may be able to support You in this difficult moment such as Relatives or Friends. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @busymomof5, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!