@busymomof5

I can relate to you 100% for wanting to feel normal. I can also relate to having such good positive energy too.... and for your husband pointing it out.

I’m newly diagnosed... I was in mania and hypomania from the end of March 2020 - July 5 2020.... I lost weight, fixed a wall, painted a room, tried to divorce my husband, was sent to a mental hospital, dated a guy in California, almost lost my child with CPS involved..... then I hit depression and didn’t want to get off the couch, thought I was a terrible mom and didn’t deserve my child, almost lost my teaching job that I’ve had for 10 years because I thought they would see my depression and fire me and I didn’t feel like teaching at all, it was like I hated my job even though I knew in my heart that I had always loved it, I even thought if I died it was ok, and I wanted to be anyone else but me.

I went through that for 7 months!!! I’m finally back to normal. Please don’t get a quick high, it won’t help. The only thing that does is Time. I had to go through the motions until my sanity came back. I also binge watched shows, played online games, and made sure I was always around people. I also worked really hard and tried not to think. I lesson planned and probably sounded like a robot when I was teaching, but I made it and I’m so glad I did... I love my job again!!

You will feel normal again, but I agree with the others, please talk with your doctor. My heart goes out to you!!!! I wish I could take away your pain!!! I wish this illness never existed.... but it does and we have to learn how to make the best happiness when we do have those normal moments to carry us on through our down times. ❤️