After years and years of therapy, doctors, medications, etc.. I am now diagnosed with BPD. I have read about it and talked to my therapist about it, and have a pretty good understanding of things. My question for anyone here that can relate is this. Medications for the underlying depression/anxiety have little effect. DBT seems like a foreign language to me. Absolutely no help whatsoever. I can talk for hours with my therapist about it, but the entire concept is just baffling. The example I used for her is how i felt in high school when I was forced to take Algebra. I failed miserably and still don't get it. My baseline functioning/coping was shaky at best before Covid. Now I am completely isolated. Avoiding has been the only way to cope. I do what i have to do to survive, but things that were simple now seem impossible. I don't feel suicidal, but wish I could just die already... The more I hear things like, I am not being open to change, trying enough, giving DBT a chance..... just makes me feel even worse about myself, and I didn't think that was possible. Can anyone relate? Give me any ideas or insight at all as to what to do? Thanks for listening...