Thanks to everyone who responded. I guess Um extra disappointed because I had 2 or 3 months of stability (but still wasn’t able to take care of hygiene). We agreed that if I was stable 6 months, I could go back to work. During my high, I applied for 3 jobs. 2 clinical, one non-clinical. I got the non-clinical job and am interviewing for the clinical jobs in the next week. I want to work. But I want to be well. It’s wrong, but I probably won’t mention this up and down to my pdoc as I think she would strictly stick to 6 months. Bipolar disorder will be here for the rest of my life. I have to be able to live my life. I am trapped at home. Trapped. If I can’t go back to working, I have no reason to go on. My life deserves to have more meaning than cleaning out toilets and putting away laundry.