Aww heck Roz you aint pathetic. You should know all the times i kept going back to drinking and smoking pot. I kept swearing it off and would go a day or two without it. Then, boom, there i was doing it again. I finally got to where i could go a week, then do it again for a day. Feel like crap the next day. Then go a little longer and start feeling like crap as i was drinking or smoking. It started hitting me more and more. I made it almost three months with nothing and something happened. Anger set in again and brought me back to that drink. But i've since given it up again and almost at two months. I plan on keeping it going and reaching many years of sobriety.

You can do the same thing. Your gonna have setbacks. But just take it one day at a time. You feel an urge, try to work through that urge with doing something or try to think of better thoughts. Then before you know it that urge has passed and you did it.

Someone here once told me, that i if i do get an urge to tell myself that i will wait till tomorrow to drink and you know what, that tomorrow will never come. I thank that person, she knows alot of being sober.

I wish you the best you can do. And never think badly of yourself for making a mistake.

chalmette