I was not comfortable being affectionate either, but I knew how much it meant and I wanted him to be happy. However, it wasn’t enough. I wish you all the best in your relationship. I hope that you all can find a happy medium to his needs and your space. It doesn’t happen overnight but good for you for working on yourself. I can say for me, I do appreciate and see the joys of being more affectionate. Hope you can one day experience those joys as well.