Thank you! I am in theraphy, my therapist said she rarely sees people find the resources to build themselves from the place I was to where I am now. Almost never. And I know what it took me. Almost everything. And now I am ok, no panic attacks, but hell I am not letting that fool back again. He destroyed me, my therapist wanted me to go to seek medical help (antidepressants), but I refused. And what do you know, I survived. And I am back on the pole, training, gained my strenght back, preparing for a championship, earned myself a promotion at work and am happy and he NOW decides to ping me hey how are you as if he almost didn't make me kill myself. There are people like this out there and they are the faces of reality shows, news etc or just the barista next door, it doesn't matter....