I’m anxious. Again. It’s only noon and I’ve already had 2.5 mil of Xanax. I have a bad headache right now as well so I think this may be the last of my PMS. It should be over today. Today I got a call from my kidney doctor saying he had a cancellation for tomorrow morning. My original appointment was in April. I said I’d take it. It’s telehealth which is fine with me. I had to fill out some paperwork I assume I’ll fax over. I checked off quite a bit of the urinary and stomach symptoms. Also a few neurological ones like headaches and memory loss. I wonder if tomorrow he’ll tell me I’m eligible for the 16-65 with underlying health conditions vaccine group. I do plan on asking him. But today I’m headachy and anxious. This is the 3rd day in a row where my anxiety has been off. It’s kind of frustrating.

I wonder if I’m going through caffeine withdrawals. I’m trying to cut out coffee specifically but also ease up on soda as well. Mainly zero sugar stuff. I haven’t had any coffee in 4 days. Caffeine withdrawals could be a big part of it.

Also as my old T would say. sometimes you just feel crappy for no reason and you shouldn’t try to put a label on things all the time.