I'm so sorry it triggered you.

I was close to calling the police but before I would do that I'd go to my mom's next door. I just don't want to involve her in that part of my life and calling her for help or calling the police either way would have involved her. So I've spend the last few days working on believing I'm safe. I did figure out why my door was locked; I had left through the basement door and locked it, not the front door which was locked from the night before. It took 2 days to figure that out.

I just walk around with my phone in my hand and talking to myself about how I am safe.

Tomorrow is therapist day. Finally.