Some elements of your story sound similar to mine. I live in apartment right behind my parents house but I知 over there a lot. I also fear what will happen to me when they are gone, I知 afraid my brother-in- law will try to talk my sister into just throwing me out of the house (We don稚 really like each other). I also suffer from sometimes severe anxiety and depression. I知 worried often that the best years of my life are already behind me though I知 only in my 30s. I have been trying to do a mindfulness meditation every day for ten minutes and I am looking for a different job, I want to move but I知 really scared. Just staying alive is so flipping expensive 😳