Not doing so well after all. I'm not so scared but I can't' wind down to sleep. I've taken PRNs without success. I'm missing my family member. I have all kinds of bizarre feelings about bio-dad. I'm just overwhelmed with feelings right now. I wish it were normal times and I could see my therapist in person. He says this is trauma coming out. He's been trained in EMDR since I last saw him in person and has promised that trauma work will be much less painful than the way we did it before (another technique, exposure therapy). So he showed me some EMDR things to try to contain this a bit. I have a feeling though that it would be better to do that in person.

The good thing is that he's had one COVID shot and so I should be able to see him in person in a few more weeks per the protocols. By then I may have had one vaccine myself. EMDR here I come....although hopefully by then I'll have settled.