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Originally Posted by Lemoncake
I emailed the other therapist I saw before in 2019 during my rupture with R, then tried to recall the email in outlook but sometimes it still does go through. It doesn't make sense to pay someone £40 for 50 mins to hear me cry about how much i'm struggling. I feel like I failed. Stupidly even considered seeing a celeb T who charges £200 for a 2.5h session.
I just feel so bad and feel like no one can really help me.
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Big, safe hugs dear sweet Lemon.
You have not failed. I agree with LT in thinking that it can help having someone sit and witness, hold the space, really
see me, help me hold the feelings, truly listen and hear
me while I cry and sob, even accept and welcome my tears and huge feelings. That's the thing for me, the being
seen and
heard as I wasn't at home growing up. I am slowly, ever so slowly, over the past 9+ years, learning how to listen to and hold my Self that way. It is so hard to let ourselves be that vulnerable but it is so worth it. YOU are so worth it. I hope you can find an appointment soon and let yourself cry about how much you're struggling, allow yourself to release some of the pain. I wish I could give you a real hug right now, I really do.
I wish that for you, that you will