Here’s my story. One month ago, I went to an house party hosted by a friend of mine; for some reasons, i always wanted to be the most charming and “powerful” person at those kind of social gatherings. I started planning on what to say, how to act, etc. But the moment i entered my friend’s home, i felt really anxious and “stuck”. Maybe stuck is the right word.
There was a group of friend of mine, people i usually talk with, and this group of girls, strangers, friends of the host’s girlfriend. I felt stuck right after i entered the room.
I haven’t spoke.. Maybe, a few times with my friend.
Other people, excluding someone just like me, were having fun, partying and enjoing.
You now what i did?
I took a chair, sit, confortable and large, spreading the legs, foots on the table, and looked at them, completely stuck and silent.
Then, the real thing happend…
We all went to a place in the woods, a place where you can see stars and you have a nice look all over the city.
All of my friend, even the shy guys..they all had a girl arm in arm, walking to our destination.. Me?
I officially entered in “silent prophet mode”, I call it this way, because i started leading the group to the destination, not saying a word, silent.
Long story short, waking up the next day and seeing no one of the stanger girls saying goodbye to me, even if I said it loud and clear, made me very angry..

I then came back home and stayed in the couch for 3 days, not listening to school lessons, leaving my friends on read, barely eating. My mom was pretty upset about it, but i said to her to “leave me the **** alone, or I’m gonna hurt someone in this house one day”, and we barely spoke since this incident.
This is my story, I’m an 18 years old guy who thought have the answers for all fo his inner problems, but was wrong.
Thank you in advance for the answers.