I saw my kidney doctor this morning. I saw him first in 2014 and I swear he was a young guy. I guess 7 years can really age a person. But basically he was all like “drink a lot of water and we’ll redo the tests in 4 weeks.” I see my primary tomorrow. I had no idea I was seeing him so soon. And I am really going to explain the severe PMS I still get every month which I think is causing a lot of these issues and see what his suggestion is. My therapist says he should be able to do something for me. I’m also going to ask him what’s up with getting a hysterectomy since my stupid gynecologist said it’s basically impossible for a trans man to get one done and with me and my mental health issues it might be even tougher. Both therapists had the same look and expression when I told them and they said it should not be that hard let alone impossible like the doctor is saying it will be. Then I see my surgeon at 3:45 and I am just going to ask him if he can fix my chest. It looks so wonky to me he has to be willing to help me out.

I need to start being assertive with doctors and telling them what I want and need.

I do seem to feel a legit difference in how I’ve been feeling today compared to the last 10 days. I was supposed to get my period yesterday. I just have this sort of calm feeling in my lungs like it’s over now.