I knew the day after i married my first husband i ruined my life. I wanted to annul the marriage he wouldn't do it. He fought me during the divorce. He ruined my 2nd marriage by telling our son not to listen to his step dad. Yep life ruined.

The happy white picket fence family i wanted to have was not meant for me. I hate how my life has turned out. I want to give up. But i vowed i wouldn't because my son did and my daughter doesn't need two family members to die of suicide.

I'm divorced 3x, single. Never had all the kids i wanted 3. Too old now though still fertile. Mom tells me I'm a bad mother. So has told me no more kids for 15 years. Always saying i was too old now i really am doctors says so too. I'm about to be 47.

Never had the descent husband should give up there too. Tried married more than once. Lots of therapy has me realizing guys suck. They all have issues or are after sex. So I'm starting to give up there too.

I wanted the love of a lifetime i got screwed over 3x. I hate how my life has turned out and yet i may have a long life. I don't want a long life. I wish it was over now.