So Sorry about what happened! i agree with the wise and wonderful sarahsweets. It is unfortunate that things haven't turned out as you wished but that doesn't mean that Life isn't worth living. You still have your daughter, although i am So Sorry for the Loss of your son! Please do not give up and try to Live your Life in the best way you can. You matter. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Aviza, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones. Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!