I’m sorry but I felt triggered by the fact that you blamed girls. Or blame others because you feel not good enough.

But, please, don’t feel uncomfortable, I’m only trying you to see it. Frustration can lead us to blame others.

I have a question for you? If you want to reply of course. How was your parenting? Many of these problems have its root in the way we were raised.
Do you think you can see a professional to treat how you feel? Because believe it or not, I feel reflected on you and I took the decision to apart myself from society at 17 and that time I couldn’t afford a therapist to help me.