My doctor said because I have ongoing psychotic symptoms, as I said earlier I don’t talk about them on here. I talk about them with my sister and my therapist, doctor and people in my real life but not on here because I feel like it’s personal and I don’t want people in my real life to find me on here. I’m also suicidal a lot. And I’ve been on almost every AP and things aren’t getting better they’re starting to get worse the past two or three months. I know because I don’t post about being suicidal constantly or about my hallucinations and stuff all the time that may seem like I’m stable but I’ve been struggling a lot and I don’t feel comfortable writing some of the things I deal with on here. Plus I ended up in hospital last month for psychotic symptoms and I keep having experiences (again, don't feel comfortable talking about them specifically here) but that I keep almost ending up in the hospital again