12 hours, counting the trip to work and the trip to come back home? If not, it seems to me a lot of hours.

Yes, I know this feeling. The only way it can compare to is like sheep being aware that they are gonna be sacrificed. To be honest. And in your case, being Autistic is even harder.

I wished I could tell you something to help you.
The only thing I can think about is take each day at one (I don’t know how to express this in English). Take it little by little and don’t think that you will have to do these changes for all days but think only about the day of tomorrow. Let’s see how it goes.

Tomorrow you can come here to tell us how it went and maybe, we can tell you more things to support you in these tough moments. I know you are having a very hard time.