I can relate... absolutely. The chronic depression, anhedonia, agoraphobia... music just being noise rather than enjoyable now. My video games even aren't enjoyable like they had been. And they weren't really that much fun before, they were more time passing devices. I used to journal all the time and I can't even seem to get into that as much right now. It's like the days just come and go, on and on, because that's what is supposed to happen.