i am So Sorry that things are being so hard for you. please do not give up. You are not helpless, i think everyone can improve their own Lives. i am here if you need to talk. Hopefully others as well. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @LittleEarthquakes, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones. Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!