I'm trying to feel differently, I really am but it's all unfamiliar territory and I'm afraid of the unknown. I like to stay in my apartment, which I call my *comfort zone*. Not to mention how much I would be thinking of my 2 kitties at home who love me and I can't sleep without. I'll work on this but it will also mean scaring my family and then they'd watch me like a hawk even more than they do now. That would feel suffocating.