i am So Sorry that you're going through this! Getting out of bed can be really hard when you're depressed from what i've heard. Are you currently seeing a therapist and Pdoc or taking any medications and such that may be able to help you get through all this? Please do not give up, i think it is possible for you to get better! Try to distract yourself by doing some of the things you love. Anything to get through the day! Please do not harm yourself or others. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @mimibadhuri0, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!