I am not sure that I will go back to face-to-face even when it is possible. I have been able to be more open and vulnerable working remotely, as opposed to in person, and I don't want to lose my fledgling ability to be vulnerable with her. I miss her physical presence sometimes, but we did meet once for a walk. In the future, I imagine most of my work will be online with occasional in person sessions. She seems more keen to meet in person than I am. She talks about wanting to see me (we don't even use the video function) and I think I recoil from her want, it feels too much like her grasping at me.