Thanks. Yes. I agree and I have seen where the Borderline diagnosis (though I heard you say they changed it for you and that is not your diagnosis) sometimes gets unfair PR too which could inhibit people from getting the right diagnosis and many times IMO, we are maybe on a spectrum to the point we "nearly" qualify for the diagnosis (more high functioning with less severe symptoms) so maybe could benefit from some to the tools used but don't need as much medication or therapy as someone with more severe symptoms or someone just learning how to manage what they have.

On a few occasions, when we are both feeling calm, we have successfully talked about it. He says he worries about me (I am lucky, not everyone has this. ) and though he would not admit to having PTSD from everything that happened (I made a serious attempt in 2015 and he was the one that found me ) -- I sometimes think that he does suffer from that event and the fallout. Complicating matters is that he is one of those guys that does not admit weakness in many situations, is a traditional--men are supposed to be the strong ones and make sure everything goes OK. I am accident prone sometimes and it can feel like he is the safety patrol. But we do talk about it sometimes while there are other times that I can sense that it is better to just try not to talk and let the funk I am feeling in the air between us just pass. He also used to follow some of my posts here (and may still sometimes)--so I thought if he sees this then good!