I can't really give you any solid suggestions. I was on the PsychCentral forum for many years & remember you from the addictions thread, though. Have you considered touhing base with anyone from that thread?

I haven't touched a drink in a decade & then some, but feel everyone has to make up their own mind to stop. Going to AA helped me, but I know that's not a very popular choice for a lot of people. If I recall correctly, you've stopped for fairly long periods in the past, so I'm sure you can do it again. I do know that mixing meds with alcohol is a pretty self-defeating & potentially dangerous behavior. Maybe keeping that in mind might help? Anyways...I don't preach. Good luck, bizi.