Thanks for asking!
I dont really know, what he wants. At this point, I feel we are both thinking if or how we can continue the relationship.

He wants me to explain. For him it just dosnt fit together how I can say I love him and betray his trust for 2 years. To him the secrecy of infidelity is not much different from the secrecy of not telling about the contact attempts.
He wants me to tell him how we can continue the relationship.